When I think of the words panic attacks, depression and anxiety, it’s something that we don’t normally tell others we experience it ourselves. It immediately makes me want to avoid telling anyone that I feel that way in periods of my life. The reason is that I don’t want anyone to treat me any differently or wonder why I would feel that way. I recently watched a video on dealing with anxiety here, which explains many aspects of anxiety that I think many people can relate to. When she mentions placing ourselves in situations repetitively or have constant practice, we lose that sense of fear. There’s that ability to go out of your comfort zone.
Over the years, my panic attacks has significantly lessened, but there are still those moments where I feel my breathing quickening as much as I try to slow it down. You feel like your heart is going to pound right out of your chest, and the worst thing is that it’s an incredibly internal feeling. However, I’ve found that the way I can stop panic attacks from happening is to breathe deeply and stay positive. As easy as it is to say that, it’s not always easy. It takes conscious effort and a peaceful mindset. I think this definitely takes practice and time.
Depression is something that many, many people experience, but many people also don’t understand it. I started feeling depression several years ago in and out when I became a teenager. Through time, one of the things that definitely help when depression comes sliding in, is to keep yourself busy. The easiest thing to happen, is that you fall down a hole and feel completely helpless and worthless. Know that that is absolutely not true! There are many times that depression will lie to you, in order to drag you down and keep you there inside the dungeon. Until, you feel it’s almost impossible to lift yourself back up.
As much as our loved ones can be there for us, having a mental illness is a personal journey. We make our own choices in life, and therefore there is this need to make that decision of how we are going to cope with it. We have the blessing of having this life, and so it’s our own choice whether we live it or not. I say this, because it’s rare that many people will talk of depression and suicide, and how connected they are. There are so many people who are feeling completely rock bottom, and we may never guess it. Then when you hear about their passing, it can be truly heart breaking. Depression is invisible and silent.
Anxiety is a daily battle, but it takes time, experience and a change of self. I don’t think it will ever go completely away, but it can definitely be controlled and taught as a reminder to not worry so much. It pushes you to go out and see the world. We can only change what we are in control of. There are things we can do to make ourselves smile, and sometimes mental illnesses tell us we don’t deserve it. But, you completely deserve it. You need to do certain things that make you happy, otherwise what’s the point? We truly need more understanding in this world, and we all have a heart that has the ability to kind. Remember that nobody is normal, no matter how much it looks like it.