Talking About Panic Attacks, Depression & Anxiety

ca8244f8b531f12b31c1080f5198f3de.jpgWhen I think of the words panic attacks, depression and anxiety, it’s something that we don’t normally tell others we experience it ourselves. It immediately makes me want to avoid telling anyone that I feel that way in periods of my life. The reason is that I don’t want anyone to treat me any differently or wonder why I would feel that way. I recently watched a video on dealing with anxiety here, which explains many aspects of anxiety that I think many people can relate to. When she mentions placing ourselves in situations repetitively or have constant practice, we lose that sense of fear. There’s that ability to go out of your comfort zone.

Over the years, my panic attacks has significantly lessened, but there are still those moments where I feel my breathing quickening as much as I try to slow it down. You feel like your heart is going to pound right out of your chest, and the worst thing is that it’s an incredibly internal feeling. However, I’ve found that the way I can stop panic attacks from happening is to breathe deeply and stay positive. As easy as it is to say that, it’s not always easy. It takes conscious effort and a peaceful mindset. I think this definitely takes practice and time.

Depression is something that many, many people experience, but many people also don’t understand it. I started feeling depression several years ago in and out when I became a teenager. Through time, one of the things that definitely help when depression comes sliding in, is to keep yourself busy. The easiest thing to happen, is that you fall down a hole and feel completely helpless and worthless. Know that that is absolutely not true! There are many times that depression will lie to you, in order to drag you down and keep you there inside the dungeon. Until, you feel it’s almost impossible to lift yourself back up.

As much as our loved ones can be there for us, having a mental illness is a personal journey. We make our own choices in life, and therefore there is this need to make that decision of how we are going to cope with it. We have the blessing of having this life, and so it’s our own choice whether we live it or not. I say this, because it’s rare that many people will talk of depression and suicide, and how connected they are. There are so many people who are feeling completely rock bottom, and we may never guess it. Then when you hear about their passing, it can be truly heart breaking. Depression is invisible and silent.

Anxiety is a daily battle, but it takes time, experience and a change of self. I don’t think it will ever go completely away, but it can definitely be controlled and taught as a reminder to not worry so much. It pushes you to go out and see the world. We can only change what we are in control of. There are things we can do to make ourselves smile, and sometimes mental illnesses tell us we don’t deserve it. But, you completely deserve it. You need to do certain things that make you happy, otherwise what’s the point? We truly need more understanding in this world, and we all have a heart that has the ability to kind. Remember that nobody is normal, no matter how much it looks like it.

Art by Yelena Bryksenkova

10 thoughts on “Talking About Panic Attacks, Depression & Anxiety

  1. I love this. I love how you talk about depression and anxiety. It’s so true, we don’t want anyone to know about the darker parts of us — and it’s a treasure when we find someone we can trust with it. Depression is so invisible, you’re right. It takes effort to hide, but it can be done, and the awful part is we think that’ll make everyone happier…
    And anxiety. It’s not easy to talk about that, either. Panic attacks are when we feel our weakest and so we hesitate to mention them at all. And it’s really nice when we can learn to control them. :]
    Best wishes to you, Katie!

  2. I’ve actually been hospitalised because of palpitations and an increase in heart regulating enzyme that was a result of anxiety… It is a daily battle for me. But thankfully I am coping with it better now…

    1. Oh wow – Thank you for sharing such a personal experience with me. I’m happy to hear that you’re coping with it better now, and you’re a very strong person.

  3. Thanks so much for sharing this. As someone who also struggles with anxiety, depression and panic attacks, it helps to hear other people’s stories when they can relate. And it’s especially reassuring knowing it’s okay for it to be a daily battle that might not ever go away. It doesn’t mean we’re bad or wrong in some way.

    1. I’m glad you could relate, I was a little hesitant to post it at first, but then I told myself that it’s actually something that’s a lot more common and needs to be spoken about more often. That’s very true, it’s not bad or wrong, it’s something that can push us to strive to become a stronger person.

  4. Mental illness can be such a long and lonesome journey. Only you truly know your symptoms, and only you can improve your wellbeing. It all sounds so dark in this sense, but it’s also so powerful. Those who recover and get well become much more resilient people, and can help others by sharing their stories. Like they say, “mental illness is not a sign of weakness.”

    By the way, talking about depression, there’s a TV series called Switched at Birth. The new season just started recently and one of the main issues the show’s dealing with is depression. I’ve watched the show from the start, and despite all the typical tv-series-drama, I think it deals really well with issues like personal struggles and disabilities. I highly recommend it if you’re interested!

    1. It really is a long journey. At the end of the day, only you can make the final decisions, regardless of how much advice you get from others. That’s true, and resilience is such an important and strong characteristic to have. Ah thanks for sharing, I will have to check it out!

  5. I’ve been currently reading book about girl who has social anxiety and depression. Maybe you’d liked it. Its called Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella. Have a nice day

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